Oh, hi, thanks for checking in, I'm still a piece of garbage.

Hi there, I recently went through and private-ed all of my old cringe-y posts from 2013, and rediscovered my love for posting here. Obviously, a lot has happened since 2013, but I am still me. So, don't expect too much change. However, I vow to use proper grammar and punctuation and have banned the use of ... and !!! I don't know what I was thinking back then.

So lets get to the real topic of today. College. Oh boy, college. I had made a post in 2015 when I was a junior, stressing about graduating early and moving out and going somewhere like MATC. I talked about the stress of paying bills and rent and all of these grown up things. At the time I thought I was being mature and was excited to move on with my life because I felt ready. Never in my life have I ever been so wrong about something. I did a ton of growing up my senior year, and without those experiences I don't think I would be even slightly prepared for college. Even now, I feel like I'm not as prepared as I should be and I'm at college! But thats completely okay. The thing nobody ever tells you about college is that literally nobody knows what they are doing, we are all just making it up as we go, which is something I find really liberating, because I know along the way I am making mistakes and doing dumb things. That sounds really twisted, but I firmly believe that experiences and mistakes are the number one way to learn from things. So I'm happily embracing all of my mistakes, because otherwise, college would be really boring.

Wow, that got real sentimental real fast. Sorry about that. Next time it won't be like that. Thats all for today folks.

-A

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